Going With The Flow
I’m the black sheep of the family.
I am not a substance abuser, alcoholic or drug dealer.
I’m not a thief, fence, fraudster, gun dealer or bank robber.
I failed to look the other way,
to remain co-dependent,
to make excuses,
stay silent
or adhere out of loyalty, expectation or fear.
I failed to fit the moulds assigned me,
shunned the sympathy vote,
rejected my scapegoat status.
I failed to pay lipservice to platitudes,
to massage egos,
to support people’s self images,
play the game
to be anyone’s narcissistic object
or bond with those who never did the hard work required to deserve it.
I failed to remain crazy enough to institutionalise,
failed to be silent enough to ever silence again,
and failed to need those who inflated and advertised their own self importance.
I failed to Go With The Flow
(and it was so worth it).
Donna Williams, BA Hons, Dip Ed.
Author, artist, singer-songwriter, screenwriter.
Autism consultant and public speaker.
http://www.donnawilliams.net
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I acknowledge Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander people as the Traditional Owners of this country throughout Australia, and their connection to land and community.
YOU VALIDATE ME! i found your blog just now. I’m messing around at work (a job I HATE). Trying to “find” myself. Friends keep telling me to go with the flow. And I keep saying “What for?” I’ve never been that kind of woman. The Black Sheep of my family……..the non-conformist…the rebel…….all these names I’ve been called. I decided today (and maybe some long time ago) to listen to me. Cuz i don’t steer me wrong. I come from a crazy family who calls ME crazy. So, i don’t know who YOU are………..BUT THANK YOU FOR YOUR BLOG. YOU validate me………..yevette.
P.S. Love your writing!
nice to meet you Yevette.
Your writing has me crying tears, of welcomed astonishment, I am in Australia. A client of the only “Trauma & Dissociation unit with the Southern hemisphere, your writing, ” Why not go with the flow, is, as if you are from inside my mind on many different levels, I really enjoy your blog, am so very grateful to you for your courage, on waiting about your central apnea too, as I have to be reminded to breathe when awake, drink, eat etc, like somehow I’ve, forgotten all about life? Then in hospital, the staff, are always making sure I’m breathing, too, with my machine as I have stage IV, heart Failure, and now, not long after a heart attack, am awaiting for 3 separate surgeries, in the “Heart & Lung Unit, St Vincent’s, Hospital, Sydney. Most sincerest kind & warmest Regard’s , Sarianna (shsh) Sarah p.s ” Take Care” ok?